Friday, 31 August 2012

A day late-- TTT


So I have been trying to get myself out of the house for about the last hour-- but I have been sucked into the Internet world- so I figure if I write something here and get whatever I need out of my brain it might be easier to get myself going!!

This will be my first Ten Things Thursday--- on Friday--  I will have to look again and see who started this brilliant idea-- it most certainly was not me!

1.  My house is a disaster-- it is messy disorganised and currently covered with dog hair (this week I have officially entered into shedding season!)  Plan on having a major cleaning/organising blitz this weekend-- I know I know, exciting long weekend plans- but right now I feel like I am living in chaos and chaos in one part of my life tends to bleed into other parts-- I don't like chaos!

A picture of the shedding monster!!

2.  My new neighbours across the road have been doing major land excavation and renovations for the last month--  good and bad--  it was kinda trashy over there and they have now cleaned it up and put up some nice cedar hedges- the bad is that they start with the big machines every day at 7am-- which is fine if I am working a Day shift-- if I hear the machinery i know I need to get my butt in gear because I  am late! But on days when I worked until midnight the night before-- I would love to have an hour extra sleep-- oh well-- how long can the renovations really go on? :o/

3.  I am officially an Auntie! (first time!)  I cant believe I waited to put this as three on the list!   My brother and his wife had a beautiful baby boy on Wednesday evening!  We had figured that they would never have kids, as they stated this a few times over!   So everyone is very happy- they should be coming home tonight-  As mentioned I have not met the little man yet, I am still feeling a but sick-ish and have a sore throat so I am staying away until I am 100% better!!

4.  I can't wait until summer is over (I know- what a horrible statement) I just cant handle the heat and humidity and I cannot wait to get into jeans and sweaters--  I am sooo done with shorts!

5.  This is harder than it looks--

6.  I ordered a few sugar free flavor syrups to hopefully make my pre-op and post op diet a little bit more interesting!  They should be coming today-- how I love getting mail!!

7.   I have found a Zumba class that starts next Wednesday--  $5 a class for drop ins-- not bad-- there is another one that runs  Tuesdays and Wednesday as well-- but its a but more expensive-- figure I will go this week for the first time..... so how I like it....

8.  Related to the one before-- since moving back to "the country" I have been finding is difficult to get this exercise thing going as a routine-- I think I miss all the gym glasses I used to be able to go to in the city gyms (we have NO gym here where I live-- not even a curves or anything!)  we have a very small gym at work-- but it is in the bowels of the building and kinda lonely to be down there!

9.  I am really hoping that once I start losing weight I will be able to slowly start running- I have never truly been a runner, but before my accident I had played around with C25K and I figure I could really love running-- but since I had my accident (and gained some weight)  My back just isn't agreeable to running-- small steps..... something to maybe look forward to!

10. Did I mention its Friday-- and a 3 day weekend--  wish I had a reason to go and buy back to school supplies-- how I love the smell of new pencils and binders (yup-- I'm that person!!)

That wasnt too bad---  till next time
Did I mention I can't wait till fall!! (Pic from the fall of my accident- a couple of years ago-- my horse Nichole and puppy Kira!- a pretty pair!)

Monday, 27 August 2012

Freaking myself out....

I just spent the last 20 minutes freaking myself out---

I found and read a blog about a very nice lady who unfortunately had to have her band out because it failed-  and she is now waiting to have the sleeve procedure.  This followed by last night me reading about another young women who had a roller coaster journey with her band and has just recently converted to the sleeve..... 

Not the rational me keeps trying to get through and say--> Look Amanda. you know that with every procedure that there is a certain percentage of "failed" cases (any surgery, not just the Lap Band)- that yes you could be one- however, you have an amazing surgeon, and support team .... and for those two stories you have read about the "failed" lap band just think of all of the successes that you have been reading about! 

The other non-rational me says-- OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!

SO.... trying to focus on the rational!    And focus on continuing my life changes before my surgery so that they are that much easier to stick to after!   

Anyway- enough reading- need to get ready for work...... 

AND totally unrelated!!

.....On a side not it has been over a week since I saw my horse-- missing that big fuzzy face for sure!  This is what work + being sick = horse deprived!!  Hopefully tomorrow! :o)

Monday Weigh in!

Made it through the weekend!  Woo--hooo!!

And just one more evening shift and I have a couple days off! (cannot wait!)

I made myself get on the scale this morning--  I usually have a pretty good idea if how much I am going to weight (up or down) however, this morning I was happily surprised!!

My Stats---
Age: 28
Height: 5'7"
August 14, 2012----> 270lbs
August  20, 2012 ---> 269.5lbs
August 27, 2012 ----> 266lbs --> YEAH!  down 2.5!   

I really do need to take my measurements one of these days-- and take some pics :oS

Anyway- I have had a slow start to the morning- will have more to rant later I am sure!  

Sunday, 26 August 2012

Feeling like Death....

Hello Blog world... 

Still feeling like shit- and to make it even better I am working this weekend-- I would almost be able to handle it if all I had was an 8-4 shift to work and then I could stumble home to rest for the remaining hours of the day-- but no-- instead I am 'on-call' basically a way for my employer to save money, reduce the amount of staff they need and make my life a living hell!    So since yesterday at 4pm I have been 'on-call'  I shouldn't complain too much-- got to go home and sleep from 4pm-8pm but then I got a call and was at work until 10pm.......  no calls thru the night --- thank god!   but I am currently here at work at the moment (just a little bit of procrastination!)  

The worst part is that I should be calling 'insick' however, as I stated above my employer keeps staff in this department so lean that even if I was on my death bed the chances of getting someone to cover me-- 0 to none!   And.. AND I work in healthcare-- so it makes me feel rotten that I could potentially be getting someone else sick -- surgical mask it is for me!  

Anyway, one advantage of being sick is that I haven't been interested in any 'bad' food like I usually would be when I am on call for work- so I have been sticking to eating healthy 'wooo'  (cough cough!)

Anyway- there is my short little rant for this morning--  better get these patients done so that I can get back home and feel sorry for myself   rest a bit!

haha-- me at work---not impressed!!

Saturday, 25 August 2012

Great website

At the moment I am really enjoying reading this website- very informative and from the perspective of a nutritionist!

Friday, 24 August 2012

being sick sucks!

There has been no truer statement than the above!  Being sick sucks!  

I have been battling a cold since- well- Tuesday- Yes I know not that long- but I have had to work through it and I work this weekend- so I have been laying on the 'get better' vibes pretty thick- really don't want to be sick this weekend!

I have been living on chicken soup, popsicles and random veggies from the garden-- and sleep- lots of sleep the last couple of days.  At the moment I am feeling better- and my dirty house is driving me crazy! Figure I might be able to muster up some energy to make my place a bit more live-able!

Getting pretty excited as my surgery date approaches- I was just looking at my calendar and it is coming quickly!  A little less than a month from now I will be starting my pre-op diet- pretty crazy!  Oh and I have been having fun making up my mind as to what my goal rewards are going to be! I know one will be that tattoo that I have been wanting for awhile- just not sure where to put it on my list! Once I have it finalized I will be posting them here--

Guess I didn't post my weigh in for last Monday (nothing to exciting to report really!)  Guess I should catch up on that!

My Stats---
Age: 28
Height: 5'7"
Weight as of August 14, 2012----> 270lbs
Weight as of August  20, 2012 ---> 269.5lbs   (hey at least its a loss right?!)

I haven't exactly been following what my post op diet will be- but will try and get on track as I get feeling better!     

Sorry about this post- I realise that it is a tad on the boring side!  But I just felt like writing!  :o)

I love coming onto blogger and catching up on what everyone is up to- it gives me such inspiration!  I love how I am able to get in touch with people who are in all stages of this amazing journey!  Those that are at their goal weight and maintain, those that have just had surgery and are going through their adjustment stages- and those like me who are heading into just the beginning of this fantastic journey!  Keeps me excited! (especially since I have not been able to tell a lot of people at the moment about my decision!)

This past weekend was a good one- went fishing with my friend S and her family- a nice mid day fish- therefore no fish!   It was nice- I have never felt like I have been judged out right by anyone in her family (which is nice) however, I would love to be the one who can look cute while fishing- who doesn't make the boat go crooked because too much weight in on one size-- it is so hard to enjoy a day on the lake when you are thinking of these things--  makes me feel even more determined to be successful and make the changes that I need to make!

Anyway- need to get more chicken noodle soup--  

till next time... 

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

A Month of Last Dinners...and the results....

Well what a month it has been!  (and not in a really great way!)

It seems that after my visit with Dr C. I gave myself permission to jump off the deep end and eat whatever I wanted-- and boy did I!!   I have come back to earth and reality after a camping weekend with friends I haven't seen in over a year- and of course they didn't say anything about my weight- but I just felt like a blob! Not myself at all--and SO out of shape-- we did a hike and I was thanking the rain gods that the rocks were still wet -- I was able to use this as an excuse to move at a snail's pace!! 

Got home Sunday night-- and decided enough is enough!  I wasn't making myself happy by being lazy (hadn't gone for a walk in at leaset a week- not counting the hike) Took all the camping food that I had left over and promptly threw out all the bad stuff-- good by jujubes-- good buy gummy worms! So long chocolate chip cookies!!   and for good measure I put a good dose of dish soap on top of them all-- just in case!!  

Yesterday was a good day-  ate well, took the dog for walk- almost turned around 5minutes in- its amazing what a month of little physical activity can do to your body-- sad really!  But pushed through the first ten minutes of being uncomfortable-- and we had a nice long 45 minute walk- not fast-- but I ended up with a good sweat on by the end!!

I have been talking to my friend K, she and her husband had lap band surgery over a year ago. She has been very supportive- sent me a couple of e-mails of tips for pre-op diet as well as for after the surgery and things that helped her out-- I am so grateful for her!! 

Oh and the big news---->   I weighed myself this morning..... dah-dah-daaahhh!!

I have been avoiding the scale since I went over the deep end-- and I always have an uncanny way of just knowing somehow how much I weigh and if I have gained or lost-- and I just knew that I had gained close to 10lbs-- and guess what--- You have a winner-- I have-- so here is the first time that I am going to state my weight on my blog-- I figure I need to start being accountable for my actions and writing it down is defini8tly a way to do that! so drum roll please........

My Stats---
Age: 28
Heightt: 5'7"
Weight as of August 14, 2012----> 270lbs  

Well-- there it is-- in black and white-- the highest weight I have ever been!   Not quite the milestones that I was hoping to be hitting at my age-- or any age at that matter!

HOWEVER, I am determined to be positive-- I am making changes-- and good choices this moment forward-- and I am bound and determined to get the "All or nothing"  mentality out of my brain-- every little choice I make that is a positive one that moves me closer to being healthy is a mini-victory. If I make one bad choice-- I will regroup and the next decisions I will look at it as another step towards victory!

I have been trying to set some goals and get my reasons for having lap band surgery firmly in my brain (something that the weight loss clinic encourages you to do before surgery-- so that during those moments of self doubt after surgery -- you can look back and remember why you wanted to change!)  I will share those after I have really gotten them straight in my head!

Happy Tuesday to all---

till next time! One small victory at a time!!